Well, I had my post-op follow up appointment today. I am happy to say that I am now in a shorter firm brace for 4 weeks and then I will have a more flexible one for 6-8 weeks. It's going to be a long slow process but we're headed in the right direction. Although today I am in a lot of pain but the doctor said that is from the stitches and stiffness. I'll tell you it felt horrible when he had me do my wrist exercises. I wanted to cry. Hopefully, it will all get better and less painful as time goes on.
This week is one of those weeks I wish I could escape. Six years ago today my Mom had her massive heart attack. It was the worst day of my life. She passed away a few days after, but I feel like this is really the day I lost her. This was the last day that I spoke to her...that morning in fact. So, even though it's been 6 years (which I can't even believe) I still feel like it was yesterday. I can remember every single detail of the phone conversation with my Dad and the sickening feeling I had in my stomach as we hung up and I made my arrangements to fly home. I will never forget that week and how emotional it was for our family. I miss my Mom so darn much. I know she is at peace and is happily watching over us but life will never be the same.
It has taken me a very long time to get over my grief. I am going to try something different this year. I am going to celebrate my Mom's life instead of letting myself feel so sad. Yes, I will still feel sad on some level, but I am going to make sure I do something to honor my Mom. I am going to show my daughters pictures of her and we are going to take a ride to the ocean and do something special for my Mom because that is what she would have wanted.
So, I am off to think deep and hard about what I can do to make this week a very special one. I love you Mom and I miss you with all my heart.
No language can express the power, and beauty, and heroism, and majesty of a mother's love. It shrinks not where man cowers, and grows stronger where man faints, and over wastes of worldly fortunes sends the radiance of its quenchless fidelity like a star. ~ Edwin Hubbell Chapin
Hi I'm Jen, married to my best friend for 16 years and a Mom to 3 beautiful, energetic daughters. My blog is about life, learning to live with Grace and Girls Raised In The South (GRITS). Thanks for spending some time in my small part of the world! I hope you find a story you can relate to and you'll want to come back!
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