I sat down yesterday to write on finding more joy in life. (I can hear my husband laughing now...you'll understand more after this blog). As I began putting my words on paper, my mind was preoccupied with sounds of whining, crying and I think there was even some yelling coming from the other room. I began to think about how peaceful it was when the kids were outside playing. I could hear the birds chirping and the wind blowing. Never underestimate silence.
Don't get me wrong, I adore my girls. I would lay my life down for them. What I don't adore is the nagging and whining that has taken over our little angels (or monsters depending on the day).
We just happened to have a REALLY bad day yesterday. I'm optimistic it was a freak happening and we can move on! See, hope is a beautiful thing.
My poor husband walked in the door yesterday and I think he could see the smoke coming out of my ears. I was broken. I was done mentally and emotionally. I'm not sure what happened to my patience; it was gone and never found again. BUT...there is always the beauty of a good conversation with a nice glass of wine. We discussed our plan and we are ready for action.
I am happy to report today has been better thus far. Part of our plan is to not let their behaviors take over how we feel. I will try my hardest to be calm, kind, yet firm when I need to. It's easy to fall into a negative trap when you feel like you're failing as a parent. I'm sure there are going to be hard days ahead. I am also sure that if we are consistent with our plan we will conquer the negativity.
I've realized that as long as I am trying my hardest as a Mom that is all I can do. I'm not a perfect parent and never will be. I just want to be the best that I know I can be. I want my girls, my husband and I to have a household full of love, joy and hope. So, I will continue to pray each morning for God's guidance; For patience and kindness as I deal with my day.
When it comes down to the nitty gritty life is short. This season of parenting will go quickly. I am sure in a few years I will look back with much laughter. Joy...I am ready for you. My arms are open wide!
I love to play hide and seek with my kids, but some days my goal is to find a hiding place where they can't find me until after high school. ~Author Unknown
Hi I'm Jen, married to my best friend for 15 1/2 years and a Mom to 3 beautiful, energetic girls. This blog is about life, learning to live with Grace and Girls Raised In The South (GRITS). Thanks for spending some time in my small part of the world! I hope you find a story you can relate to and you'll want to come back!
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