It has been quite some time since I wrote last. At first I was taking a hiatus due to very sudden back pain. It came on like wildfire and took many months of medicine, doctor appointments and epidural injections. Finally, after speaking to my neurosurgeon (he is who we went to for a second opinion once we were told I would need a disc fusion which is major surgery); he suggested I try wearing a back brace while exercising and also going to see a chiropractor. Oh, how I wish I would have started with him months ago. The chiropractor has been a "back saver" for me and my family. I am now for the most part pain free which is a huge relief. There are bad days but we are seeing an improvement and are so thankful for him and his honesty.
So, between dealing with the back pain and end of the school activities my poor blog was put on the back burner. Then summer came...and now summer is almost gone (I cannot believe how fast it went). We had a wonderful two months filled with a lot of swimming, lazy beach days, fun filled day trips and finally a two week vacation to visit our family up north.
We spent a day in New York City, multiple days at the boardwalk enjoying the amusement rides (my 8 year old has a stomach of steel), beach time, trips to the ice cream parlor but most importantly time with our family. Living away from family is so very hard. I love where we chose to live and raise our girls. At the same time, when we go back up north and are surrounded with loved ones it is always difficult to leave.
This particular trip seemed to be even more difficult. The girls were crying and we all felt so sad to be saying our good byes. When we were in the car and I was telling the girls it is okay to feel sad and to miss our family; I realized we shouldn't be saying goodbye rather we should be saying see you soon.
Time will pass quickly with fall activities and school events…then the holidays will be upon us and we will be celebrating with our loved ones once again.
Today though, as I sit here and try to put my thoughts on paper, my head is spinning like a roller coaster with many different emotions. We have been reminded once again how precious and special life is and unfortunately sometimes way too short. We also are reminded on these most difficult days that God is SO powerful and SO present. Even though it is not always easy to feel God around you especially on those uphill days, but he is there. He never leaves us even in our darkest hours. He wants us to come to him and tell him ALL of our feelings even the ones we think we shouldn't tell him. For me, this is not always easy to remember. I feel like if I tell him how I am truly feeling (sometimes anger, sometimes confusion etc) there is no way he would want to hear it…but that's not true.
I'm not sure I will ever comprehend why some things happen to certain people, but I know as I sit here and listen to my three young girls laugh and carry on that this is what life is about. They are so innocent and deserve nothing but happiness. So, I will hug these girls a little harder tonight and linger a little longer during our bedtime routine. Then tomorrow when the sun rises once again and life carries on I will be certain to do the same.
Never, never, never give up. ~Winston Churchill
Hi I'm Jen, married to my best friend for 16 years and a Mom to 3 beautiful, energetic daughters. My blog is about life, learning to live with Grace and Girls Raised In The South (GRITS). Thanks for spending some time in my small part of the world! I hope you find a story you can relate to and you'll want to come back!
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