Nothing can change if we are stagnant for extended periods of time. This is true physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. I've experienced too many losses in the past few years and have decided I need to make a change. I cannot continue to "just wish" that my fate is different. I need to take charge and do what I can right NOW to make it better (for me and my family). So, I am making changes. I am making physical changes and emotional changes which will then lead to mental and spiritual change. I'm excited and I know I will feel better in the long run.
I started today with a great workout in the gym (reading my scripture while on the elliptical- hey, as long as you fit it in), then a walk on the beach (one of my favorite places in the world) and yoga. Then I rushed home, took a 2 second shower, threw my hair up, picked up my youngest from preschool and went to serve birthday cake at my daughter's school. Then we came home to laundry, cleaning etc. Now, I am finally able to sit for a few minutes before the older two get off the bus and write (my other love). Why is this such a big deal? Well, because even a few weeks ago I would have skipped the walk on the beach and yoga because I wanted to be nicely dressed and showered for my daughter's school....does it really matter? I was clean and dressed, just not totally put together. What matters is that I made time for myself and for the things that bring peace to my life. I love exercising and feel so much better when I can do it. I love yoga and it keeps my back feeling great so I can then do everything else like walk =)
I think back to a year ago when I couldn't even get myself out of bed or dressed because my back was in so much pain. After months of physical therapy, cortisone shots and finally finding the right chiropractor I am back to feeling pretty good. So, yes it does matter that I was able to fit in the things that make me feel good. Of course there will be days that are busy and filled with activity, but I am learning. I am learning to prioritize. I am learning to make myself feel just as important as I make everyone else. Won't you give it a try?
“The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere where they can be quiet, alone with the heavens, nature and God. Because only then does one feel that all is as it should be and that God wishes to see people happy, amidst the simple beauty of nature.” — Anne Frank