Do you believe in signs? Not like stop signs or traffic signs...but signs from God? I do...I think I do now more than before I lost my parents. Anyway...today was one of those days when I felt like I received a sign from God. I have been having this inner battle of trying to figure out how to get it all done (housework, everything with kids, time for my husband, time for God, time for myself, exercising etc.) Sometimes it can be very overwhelming. There are days when I go to bed and think, "what did I accomplish today?" Then there are days when I feel like I can't go to bed yet because I didn't do what I had set out to do for the day. Well, today I was thinking about how I need to find more balance and enjoy being a Mom more. I love my kids...I REALLY love my kids...but sometimes I feel like everything I do is for them and never have time for myself or for my husband. So, I was trying to think of a way to make it all work better. This was all before 9am this morning haha!!!
Then I arrived at my MOPS meeting. During the meeting we had a guest speaker. She was talking about how our lives with children are like a garden. We need to tend to them and be patient as they grow. During her talk I was reminded how God has chosen to put these amazing children in MY life. He chose ME among all others...It is not an accident...life is not an accident. God planned for my husband and I to have these three beautiful beings and for ME to be their Mom. That is very hard to grasp at times. It is a HUGE responsibility and there are days I feel like I don't deserve that sort of gift. I was reminded today, that it is okay to make mistakes and it is okay to not get it all done. The most important job I can do at this moment in time is to tend to my children and give them the tools to be the best person possible. Not that this is any small chore...it certainly is not. It is a job that may feel like it drags on and on, but one day I will be looking at three adult women and wondering where the time has gone. I love my girls...I want to be the best Mom I can be for them. I want to build their self esteem and nurture them to the core. I am humbled that God has chosen me. I hope that I can do what he is asking of me.
Today, I leave you with one of my favorite biblical quotes...
"Well done, good and trustworthy servant; you have shown you are trustworthy in small things; I will trust you with greater; come and join in your master's happiness." Matthew 25:23
For me, this quote brings up many memories...maybe one day I will find the words to share them with you. For today...I hope that you find your job as a parent (Mom or Dad) to be a very special, God chosen task. When the going is tough...and it is for any parent, remember God chose YOU for a reason. Have a great day!