This week is one of those weeks I wish I could escape. Six years ago today my Mom had her massive heart attack. It was the worst day of my life. She passed away a few days after, but I feel like this is really the day I lost her. This was the last day that I spoke to her...that morning in fact. So, even though it's been 6 years (which I can't even believe) I still feel like it was yesterday. I can remember every single detail of the phone conversation with my Dad and the sickening feeling I had in my stomach as we hung up and I made my arrangements to fly home. I will never forget that week and how emotional it was for our family. I miss my Mom so darn much. I know she is at peace and is happily watching over us but life will never be the same.
It has taken me a very long time to get over my grief. I am going to try something different this year. I am going to celebrate my Mom's life instead of letting myself feel so sad. Yes, I will still feel sad on some level, but I am going to make sure I do something to honor my Mom. I am going to show my daughters pictures of her and we are going to take a ride to the ocean and do something special for my Mom because that is what she would have wanted.
So, I am off to think deep and hard about what I can do to make this week a very special one. I love you Mom and I miss you with all my heart.
No language can express the power, and beauty, and heroism, and majesty of a mother's love. It shrinks not where man cowers, and grows stronger where man faints, and over wastes of worldly fortunes sends the radiance of its quenchless fidelity like a star. ~ Edwin Hubbell Chapin