Don't get me wrong, I adore my girls. I would lay my life down for them. What I don't adore is the nagging and whining that has taken over our little angels (or monsters depending on the day).
We just happened to have a REALLY bad day yesterday. I'm optimistic it was a freak happening and we can move on! See, hope is a beautiful thing.
My poor husband walked in the door yesterday and I think he could see the smoke coming out of my ears. I was broken. I was done mentally and emotionally. I'm not sure what happened to my patience; it was gone and never found again. BUT...there is always the beauty of a good conversation with a nice glass of wine. We discussed our plan and we are ready for action.
I am happy to report today has been better thus far. Part of our plan is to not let their behaviors take over how we feel. I will try my hardest to be calm, kind, yet firm when I need to. It's easy to fall into a negative trap when you feel like you're failing as a parent. I'm sure there are going to be hard days ahead. I am also sure that if we are consistent with our plan we will conquer the negativity.
I've realized that as long as I am trying my hardest as a Mom that is all I can do. I'm not a perfect parent and never will be. I just want to be the best that I know I can be. I want my girls, my husband and I to have a household full of love, joy and hope. So, I will continue to pray each morning for God's guidance; For patience and kindness as I deal with my day.
When it comes down to the nitty gritty life is short. This season of parenting will go quickly. I am sure in a few years I will look back with much laughter. Joy...I am ready for you. My arms are open wide!
I love to play hide and seek with my kids, but some days my goal is to find a hiding place where they can't find me until after high school. ~Author Unknown