I'm starting to feel more like myself again each and every day. Thank Goodness! I am grateful for my husband being able to take off a few days to help me with the girls. I'm not sure if it's a pride thing but I wish I could have enjoyed lying around more. That may sound crazy to you, but let me explain....anyone with children knows how demanding and tiring all the running around can make you. So, with that said...our three girls are constantly on the go. It's a choice we made to have them in activities, but wowsers I am feeling the brunt of all the busyness. I don't get much time to "sit down" during the day. I'm not asking for a nap (well maybe somedays I am)....I am just asking for a few moments to not feel like a hamster spinning on it's wheel. I want to lie down at nighttime and not feel so exhausted yet at the same time feeling like I didn't accomplish ONE productive thing all day long.
The problem here is I am forgetting ALL the small things matter.
Not everyday...but quite often I am feeling weary. I am feeling consumed by things that I should be enjoying but are not. This hurts. It's not so much that it is hurting my body but it's hurting my soul. Why am I on some days finding it so hard to enjoy this season of our lives? I have so many blessings that my cup should be overflowing. Yet, I feel weary. So, I decided in these past few days of having some down time (or maybe it was the strong medicine) JUST KIDDING!!! I've decided I am going to be full of gratitude instead of attitude. I'm so tired of feeling tired. Can y'all relate? Yes, I am busy; Yes, it's going to take shifting priorities around; Yes, I feel like a cab driver, but YES, I get to be home and enjoy these few years because by golly they are going to fly by. They already have. My oldest daughter will be in middle school next year....this blows my mind!
I don't want to look back in 10 years from now and wish I would have enjoyed it more. I sadly know the reality that we are not promised tomorrow. I don't want to live regretting these precious years. I'm going to continue to chase my dream of writing and getting my story shared. I'm going to continue to work on being grateful and loving each moment I get to be with my family (even the hard moments). It's through struggle we find growth. I'm kicking off a new attitude...one filled with gratitude. Who's with me?
What is one thing you are grateful for today?